Pecan therapy

I bought 30 lbs. of cracked pecans this season, this was before I knew that Mom was coming to stay with me.  I get some every year, because I use them in a lot of different things that I cook.   This purchase has turned out to be an extra blessing this year.  It gives Mom something  to do.  It helps her feel like she is contributing .  Problem is, she almost has them all picked out.

Today I had a new sitting service.  I think having someone that she didn't know sitting with her made her  feel a little melancholy. It's like she realizes she is elderly and needs someone to sit with her and she (of course) doesn't like that feeling, (who would).  She had a moment of reality where she new that her mind wasn't working right.  After the lady left and I was sitting talking to her, she said, "I can't remember why I am here, or how I got here.  If I didn't know better I would have thought that I walked".  She talked more today than she has in several days about going home to take care of "Poppy" .    Her dad was very special to her. Her mind is in a time when she is with her dad. Her dad died young, he was in his 40's .  He lived with her and daddy for a while during the early years of their marriage.  She always felt special to her dad, so, I don't know, but I think that's why her mind has settled in that time period. 

After we talked for a while she asked me if there were any more pecans to pick out, I said yes that there was a few, did she want me to get them for her.  She said yes.  It gave her something to do so that her mind didn't stay in that melancholy confused place.